We have a plan

So...I had my doctors appointment and got the wonderful diagnosis of "Unexplained lack of ovulation". So I don't have PCOS...which is a good thing. But, we are still going to have to use medical intervention to get pregnant, which is a not so good thing.

So, my doctor said that the next step is Clomid (which I already knew). DH and I weren't sure whether or not we were ready but after a long talk and a good night sleep, we decided that we are ready for it. So I am on Provera right now to end this cycle and then once I start AF, I will do Clomid on days 5-9 and then have progesterone testing done on day 21 to see if I ovulated.

I'm having some very conflicting feelings about this whole thing. I'm very glad that we have a plan and that if the Clomid works for me then we could potentially be pregnant within the next few cycles. However, I am having a hard time with a couple of things. I am feeling sort of useless. I feel like I am female and females are supposed to able to get pregnant and I can't. It is harder emotionally than I ever thought it would be. I even asked J the other night if he would still want to be with me if I couldn't ever get pregnant and he was appalled that I would even ask. He is beyond understanding and I thank God everyday that I have him in my life. The other problem that I have is that I know if the six cycles of Clomid that my doctor is willing to do don't work then we will be at a halt because the closest RE is almost two hours away and we don't have any coverage for infertility treatments.

So, in a couple of weeks I will be introducing my ovaries to Clomid. Let's hope that they can figure out what to do!

Much love to my BFPB Emily! I can't believe it's almost time to find out the sex of your little one!!!