Well, I was supposed to go to the doctor today. I got a call about 8 this morning that my doc has a stomach virus. I have been so nervous. I want to know what is wrong with me but I also don't want to know what is wrong with me. I am scared to have an official diagnosis. I'm scared for what that means as far as children. I know that a diagnosis of PCOS or anything else isn't a death sentence. It's not saying that we can never have kids. However, it is saying that it is going to be REALLY hard to get and stay pregnant. I want a baby so bad. I know that we haven't been trying for nearly as long as many of the girls with infertility that I have met have, but I don't think that it makes it any easier.
I keep going back and forth on whether or not I want to go ahead and start the Clomid cycle or if I want to wait until we can move forward to whatever we need to do to get pregnant. I could either go ahead and start the Clomid and move forward as far as we can afford and then stop until we save enough to move on to the next step (we could probably go as far as anything before IUI).
Anyway...I will talk to my doc on wednesday and I will update after that!
Good Luck on Wednesday. I hope you get a great report and you and your DH make a decision that you both feel at peace with.
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